"For God is not so unjust as to overlook your work and the love which you showed for His sake in serving the saints, as you still do. and we desire each one of you to show the same earnestness in realizing the full assurance of hope until the end, so that you may bot be sluggish, but imitators of those who through faith and patience inherit the promises"
I pray that I did the right thing God and I thank you for leading and guiding me. You work things all together for my good and I have hope in that.
: Dinner with the Skidmore family is most definitely a huge outing. Tonight we had dinner at a lovely thai place called Thai Dara for my mom’s birthday. Did I mention I love thai food? To say the least it was a very eventful loud evening. Nine adults and six children and that wasn’t even everyone. I love my large family with their strong stubborn stressful personalities. The Skidmore family definitely leave an impression everywhere we go. I wouldn’t trade being a Skidmore for anything. I have an incredible about of love for my family.
: Last semester, when I was in Spanish class, I met a girl. I noticed that she was very sweet and very kind to everyone. I was even her partner for something that our teacher had us do. While we were partners she was telling me about her church and she was asking me questions about what I wanted to do after I graduated and what not. Now to me this conversation was pointless and very ordinary. Several weeks after that she would always compliment something about me and I thought that was very kind of her. After the semester ended I forgot about her and didn’t really think much about it.
Today while I was waiting after class she came up to me and asked if she could sit at the table I was at. Of course I said yes but to be honest I didn’t really want to be bothered. She proceeded to talk to me and ask me how I was doing so I replied and asked her the same questions. Then she did something that surprised me a lot…..she remembered everything that I told her that day in Spanish class. She remembered what school I wanted to go to. My passion for Invisible Children. She even remembered my full name (which to be honest I completely forgot hers). Though you may think this is nothing it made me very happy. She cared. She cared enough to remember these things about me and not forget. She persisted to keep some sort of relationship with me.
We talked for a good half hour about God and things that He has been doing in our lives and the people at our school who need Him. The passions we both share and the things that we feel God is calling us to do. Needless to say I walked away from the conversation very pleased. Someone who I gave no thought to cared for me. Now my question to you is how many people do you talk to and meet on a daily basis do you just forget about? How many people do you simply not care about because you feel its very ordinary and unimportant? To be honest that happens to me a lot, but if I was more like this girl and actually cared for everyone I met I would truly be showing God’s love and invest in relationships. This is something that I really want to work on.
: I’m starting to think way too much. I feel like all I ever do is over analyze things; my best and worst quality. I try to figure every problem and detail out as if it were a puzzle and when one piece doesn’t fit it drives me mad. I don’t know what to do or where to go. I just want to be let out. To be set free. I don’t want to be held captive by my thoughts any longer. Why can’t everything just come together and make perfect sense? Why does everything have to be so broken? These are questions I want answers to. All I want, all I really want is simplicity.
: Today was a great adventure in which I went down to San Diego to the Invisible Children’s headquarters. Honestly I had no idea what to expect because so many different people told me so many different things. It ended up being nothing like I thought it would but none the less it was still incredible. I met and re-met a lot of different people who are incredible individuals who have such a passion for Uganda. As I was there it was almost as if I saw a glimpse of my future and what it would be like and it just made me so incredibly happy. I saw that I want nothing more than to work in the “music room” as a blogger or work in the “movement” room and plan events and book tours and keep track of roadies. It is most definitely my dream job and an atmosphere that I would love to live in. After helping out and getting a tour of the awesome place it amazed me how little staff they have for such a huge organization. It shows me that you don’t need a huge warehouse with a bunch of people working in order to make something huge. You just need the passion and the drive to make it happen and that is exactly what Invisible Children is all about.
After hanging out with everyone we went down to UCSD for the Invisible Children screening they were hosting and met up with the Cal Pak team who are wonderful roadies. Peter, the Uganda advocate, is a pastor in Gulu who has taken four months off to go on tour with the Cal Pak team to share the story. This guy is incredible in every sense. He has a lovely family who he loves. A church family who he cares for deeply. And he knows the bible like no one I have ever come across before in my life. Peter is so inspiring to me. Tonight I got to talk to him about Uganda and the world we live in and honestly I was very blessed. He told me about how his church was lacking worship because they had no money for instruments. He was telling my friends jokingly that they should give him their bass when they move to Uganda when suddenly I remembered that I have a bass that is simply sitting in my room collecting dust. I have no need for it. I don’t play so I decided that I would give it to Peter. He was so excited when I told him and he told me that he would tell everyone where it came from and that when I visited him in Uganda he would have a welcoming party for me.
I don’t think I’ve ever met anyone more welcoming then those that I have met from Uganda. They inspire me so much which is why I have such a passion to help them and seek relationships with them. They teach me far more than I could ever teach someone in my whole life time. They are so welcoming and eager to get to know you as if they’ve known you their whole life. I want nothing more than to go to Uganda visit Peter and his family. The people of Uganda are extrodinary people that I believe everyone should meet. Tonight was slightly life changing and full of realizations that made me see there is so much that I can do if I just go for it. My dreams of being a roadie and going to Uganda aren’t just dreams they can and will be reality someday. Our generation has so much power and I want to be apart of a movement that makes an impact for the generations to come. Join me.
: Are people who encourage you with the word of God. People who encourage and support. People who are there for you no matter what. People you can run to and who just understand. People who listen. People who will drop everything and be there for you. People who take you to Yogurtland when you’re depressed (Cece and David), people who bring you Starbucks because you’re sad (Ian), and most of all people who will do anything to see you smile because they love you so incredibly much.
I would say that I have wonderful friends who do nothing but care about me. I think I could write a novel about how much I love them and how much they love me. I wish they knew how much I loved them and I really hope that it shows through my actions and my words. I am so incredibly blessed with the best friends a girl could dream of having. Thank you Lord.
: Disneyland, Pictures, Jazz Kitchen with a legit New Orleans band, Getting lost at the Disneyland hotel, Taking a psychotic elevator that was possessed and spit us out in a different time era only to arrive at our destination PROM. 1 down 3 more to go. Last night was amazing! Great friends! Great Dancing! And I think my highlight: singing a song from Grease to my theater arts teacher! My school may be weird and non-traditional but I sure do love it!
: This morning when I woke up I was very reluctant to get up, but fully prepared to face my overwhelming to do list. As I was eating breakfast I found out that my first meeting got cancelled which made my morning free to do whatever else I needed to do. At this point you would think I would start working on benefit stuff, or planning for jr high girls conference, or the smartest would be to get some school work done and out of the way. Instead I decided today was the perfect day to go out and take a bike ride. So I did. You’re probably thinking “okay so what a bike ride nbd?” but honestly I can not describe to you how great my bike ride was. I was out for about 2 hours and I got to meet with some friends and just have some good conversation. But I think what made me love my bike ride so much was how comfortable I was. How great it felt to just be alone and hear my own thoughts. To think about nothing but the sun beating down on me and Beirut coming from my ipod and to be completely honest I made myself laugh. Yes I did. I realized that I am dork even by myself. That I am completely NOT graceful. That only certain things, such as a bug flying into my eye while riding down a HUGE hill, would only happen to me and make me laugh hysterically. Now you may think that this blog post is utterly unimportant and completely random but to me these are things that make me happy. That make me stop and think “I love my life and what I’m doing”. Mornings such as today make the stress and anxiety that I constantly let take hold of me go away and it is so freeing.