: I find myself asking what does God want me to see in this situation? How would He want us to respond or react? I’ve been reading a lot about love and what it means to love. God is love. Most of us know that, but do you know what that really means? The bible calls us to love. My question was how do we get the love that the bible calls us to have? Because I know that I definitely don’t have this love for everyone, which means I don’t have it at all. I was talking to a close friend about this subject and he suggested I read 1 John. I’m still reading it and understanding it but what I found to be most important is this 1 John 4:15-16 ” Whoever confesses that Jesus is the Son of God, God abides in him, and he in God. And we have known and believed the love that God has for us. God is love, and he who abides in loveabides in God, and Godin him.” Now I don’t know about you, but for me those two verses speak volumes. So much is packed into it. If you have a best friend you spend all your time with them correct? You start speaking like them, liking the same things they like, even knowing what their thoughts are and how they would go about things. What if we did that with God? We spent so much time with Him that we started to become more like Him? If we abide in God and know Him because of the time we spend with Him we know love. True Love. The love that the bible calls us to. I for sure know that I only know the slightest bit of this love but I want to know it just as God has intended for me to know it.
: Today was the last day of my semester. Finals are done and over with. Assignments all turned in. The most pleasing thought to me is “I’m never going to have to take these classes again”. I’m so excited for a new start with all new classes and a new semester to just start fresh. Next semester I’ll have a new schedule and new classes. I can’t wait! For now I’ll have a nice fun filled 4 day weekend before I start my new semester:)
Too much of the good life ends up being toxic, deforming us spiritually- David Goetz
I love this quote for a couple of reasons.
1) I know way too many people who fill themselves with activities every single second of the day. Therefore it makes me self conscious and think that I myself should also fill myself with activities every single second. But this quote shows me otherwise
2) It is pure truth.
Being fast paced and doing things at all moments leave you no time to breathe. No time to think solidly. This takes away from what God wants us to see.Filling your schedule isn’t going to satisfy. Being still is the best thing you can possible do sometimes.
My life was like the picture of Dorian Gray: A horrific painting of my failures and faults that i tried so despritely to hide. God cleared all of it away. I became a new canvas. He took away those flaws that detirmined my fate, and painted His own picture of His never ending love as the portrait of my life.
: Wednesday at youth group I got asked the question “What do you see yourself being known for when you’re 50?”. Quite honestly I had multiple answers such as making an impact whether it be for God or for Invisible Children which are two things I’m completely passionate about. Or Being a really good listener because I know every single one of the people in my life who listen to me and understand me truly have been such a blessing. As I went through out the rest of my week I kept thinking about the question and really thought about it genuinely and I realized something: I’ve already been working on those things I feel called to do both things but something that I haven’t been stepping up and relying on completely is praying without ceasing. I feel this common theme in my life at the moment about prayer and I realized I want to be known for always relying on prayer. Being faithful. I know someone like that. She is such a godly women who encourages me in my walk with the Lord by just being her and her answers for the most part are always prayer. No matter what happens whether it is good or bad she reverts back to prayer. And God is always faithful and answers. She is known to everyone around her as a faithful women of God who prays without ceasing and it is beautiful. I want to be someone who is so grounded in God and so faithful to Him. I want to be known for praying without ceasing because it is something that I always try to do but never fully accomplish. I forget easy which is a sad excuse because it seems to be such a simple thing but its true. Its not always at the front of my mind when it should be. Praying with my eyes open and praying honestly. Praying from my heart and not my mind. Its so simple because if God is truly my everything shouldn’t I want/need to talk to Him about everything? The answer is yes. I’m so madly in love with God and He is so madly in love with me. Shouldn’t I be constantly talking and listening to Him? 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 “Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.” This verse is going to become my new challenge. Pray for me.
: You know those moments when you have a really solid conversation with someone and you don’t realize how amazing it was til AFTER you’re done talking. I love those moments and I love those people. God has blessed me with such amazing people who do nothing but pour into me and give me wisdom with their life experiences. They show me God’s love and just encourage me to keep going. Working in ministry will never get tiring and it always excites me.
: Its officially the day of my birth. Also known as my birthday. I felt this dramatic change as soon as the clock said 12:01…… actually I didn’t but that would have been nice. Time for that awkward moment of singing happy birthday. That is all.